2 Weeks Old!

Today Jacob is 14 days old. It has been a whirl wind ever since he was born. There has been such a learning curve with Jacob. At first it was daunting the amount of things you have to do for one little baby.   It's not just meeting Jacob's physical needs, it's also adapting to the new mindset that you have as a mom. I now don't sleep as much as I use to, I struggle with emotions and hormones. Especially when he first came home, it was such a struggle for me being up all night long. On top of that, feeling inadequate at being a mother and often wondering to myself if I should have had a child. No one really tells you how crappy you feel the first week. At least for me I'm trying to learn not to give myself a hard time about the little things. For example, there have been days when Jacob would just be fussy all day. When I held him he would still continue to fuss (sometimes even more since he knows that I am the milk machine). It was so overwhelming to me because I feel that I'm his mother and he should calm down when he's around me. But apparently that's just how babies are and I just need to accept that. It's still a daily struggle for me not to get overwhelmed and put myself down when it comes to taking care of Jacob.

Breastfeeding has not been as much of a challenge as I thought it would be. At our first meeting in the hospital, I made the first attempt at breastfeeding Jacob. I was fully expecting for Jacob and I to struggle with breastfeeding for at least a couple of days. But Jacob immediately latched on and it seems like he hasn't left my breasts since. Some days have been more painful than others and it amazing to me how much Jacob has to eat, but I'm really glad that I have made the choice to breastfeed.

My two boys :)

Chris has been absolutely amazing ever since Jacob was born. It's so amazing to see Chris transform into this incredible father. During the night, Jacob will only fall asleep if he's on Chris's chest. Chris is always more than happy to take Jacob whenever I need a break and it's so adorable to see those two interact together. They are already little buddies. Having Jacob has given me a greater appreciation for my wonderful husband. He has truly gone above and beyond as far as taking care of Jacob and I. I wish I had the words to describe how fantastic he is. Everyday I am grateful for everything that he does for me and I could not as for a better husband or father to my little boy.

Mama Sugar with Jacob the day he was born

I want to thank my mom for everything that she has done for my family after Jacob was born. She came here right after Jacob was born and taught me everything I needed to know in order to be a good mom. My mom even extended her trip here when she saw that I was struggling with everything. She did a wonderful job of taking care of us and lifting us up when we needed it. I miss having her here but I'm grateful that she helped me get to this point so that I can be the best mom to Jacob.